The last year I've been going to bingo and the casino a lot. My mom and I liked to go together. I knew it is a waste of money and I needed to stop. But like I said to my mom last night (after losing $110), "It is the only fun thing I like to do to get me out of the house." Nice excuse. My husband and I used to do stuff together, but not for many years now because he is usually too tired on the weekends to do anything.
I've been talking with God about it and this morning he spoke to my heart. He said, "Your problem is that you don't trust me to give you something else to take the place of gambling." He was so right. I thought if I gave it up I would have nothing fun to do. I didn't think he could fill that niche in my life. But from experience I know that isn't true. He can fill up my life. He only wants me to stop gambling because it hurts me (in the pocketbook).
So, I am letting go of gambling (by His grace and strength), and I am going to trust Him to fill the need in my heart for fun and games! I believe in Him.
